Wrecked by a Vision, P.S.C.

In the winter of 1995, I attended an intensive week-long Bible conference on the Song of Songs given by Witness Lee. As a fifteen-year-old who grew up going to Sunday service for the majority of her life, I was rather content with my relationship with the Lord. However, it was during that very conference when my Christian life was revolutionized. From Witness Lee's exposition of the Song of Songs, I saw that the Lord wants to get married! His heart's desire is to obtain a bride (Revelation 21:9), a counterpart (Ephesians 5:31-32), who matches Him in life and in nature (Ephesians 5:27), and this bride is just the Body of Christ (Ephesians 5:23), which is composed of all the believers in Christ (Ephesians 5:30).

After such a revelation, I decided to give myself to the Lord and wanted more than anything to be a part of His Body. In a sense, the vision of the Body of Christ has become my governing vision for the past eight years. At crucial moments in my life when I forsook fellowship with other brothers and sisters in Christ, due to my lukewarm heart for the Lord, the Lord would always draw me back to Himself by reminding me that life really isn't worth living if I didn't live it for Him. It's funny how that's true.

Even when I tried to run away from Him, it was almost as if He let me run, but in actuality, my running only brought me into a deeper, loving relationship with Him. Now at twenty-three years of age, I can't even begin to imagine my life without Him, and I can honestly say that I no longer want to live without Him. I can only hope and pray that the Lord would continue to have mercy on me and keep me close to His heart for the rest of my days.